2005-03-24 / 8:25 a.m.
+ the last trickle of threat +
Music used to have a sense of danger. That's what made it fun. I always felt like I wasn't supposed to listen to (or enjoy) rock. Rock was my hidden desire. It was transgressive. AC/DC was a secret vice. Prince was a secret identification. Not telling my parents about them was where all the fun came from.

What's the danger these days, in music? Is Eminem, 50 Cent, Alicia Keys, Good Charlotte, The Killers or anyone else a vice, anyone's secret? It's all just so acceptable... Rock can't be dead, but I don't see the transgression anymore. Maybe a little bit with some queer bands, but that's the last trickle of threat.

Maybe it's not a bad thing. Maybe once rock's existence is safely established, it can move on to bigger concerns. Maybe we're in a time of change, waiting for something to rise up from the groundwork established by Elvis & Nirvana. But does great art ever come from safe and secure places?

Oh rock, when will you become a secret vice again?

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2005-03-21 / 8:43 a.m.
+ L - L - L - L ... longing! +
we all know that "the l-word" is some wierd extrapolation from real life. but watching it never seems like enough. i always want more. "what?! only one hour?! only once a week?!" ...it's not that i'm very connected to the characters themselves. or the straight actors that play them. but i guess i really do want more queer women in my entertainment. (and no - rosie odonnell, melissa etheridge, and ellen do NOT count.) i never thought of myself as someone who wanted or needed that lifeline, that i wanted some representation. but wanting more of the show makes me realize i need what most people need. and have?

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2005-03-11 / 4:06 p.m.
+ 2 weeks till spring +
why the world sucks a bit today:
1. me picking on my gf this morning (for no reason) - bad way to start a day
2. ember swift is playing michfest again, despite recognizing its transphobia. after years of having a hard time getting music by trans people heard, having her flaunt her privilege makes today suck a bit more. nice to be popular, huh ember?
3. the salon attendant wouldn't come to the counter, but instead kept saying "a couple more minutes!" until i left. (well, i wanted to write some third point!)

i mean - shabbas will be nice tonight. no headache, & i got lots of work done.
but today i want "excellent!" - not just good enough.

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2005-03-08 / 10:59 p.m.
+ i put this question 2 ya... +
so kallah is out with an old fuck buddy, eating raw fish & watching strippers. k asked how i feel about that. "i feel fine. i totally trust my gf." strange, since no others girlfriends deserved that trust. but things feel so much more believable this time.

so at the bar, of course my arch-enemies S. & M. walked in. no surprise, really. glad to pay no attention to them. (none?...)

today, it's all about the scissor sisters.

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